This post is specifically for me. I’m feeling anxious and stressed but I don’t really know why. So much of my life is awesome that I don’t feel I have any right to feel anything negative. So many people would trade places with me in a minute.
And yet, here I am feeling down. Feeling anxious. Feeling stressed.
Putting all of this into perspective might help.
My dear friend died on July 7th. I spent much of my time with her during the 18 months before her death. She was my priority. I don’t regret a single minute. I only regret I didn’t have more time.
My wonderful son graduated from college in May and received a great job offer with the U.S. Government (both his Dad and I are/were Federal employees) and just learned his start date will be October 17th. He now has to get an apartment, get moved, and get set up to live in Northern Virginia. He is excited and we are excited for him.
This is my husband’s very busy and stressful time at work. He is an accountant and the end of the Federal Government fiscal year is challenging, at best. He works long hours and most days of the week. He deals with a heavy workload, changing requirements, unreasonable deadlines, and personnel issues. I try to do what I can to make life at home a little easier. I don’t think I hit the mark too often.
My best friend/sister has constant stress with her job, school, and a son who is an addict. I try to be supportive and positive for her. If ever there was someone who deserves a nervous breakdown, she is the one.
Lately, I don’t feel like my brain is working at top form. I’m forgetful and unmotivated. I have so many things I want and need to do but then I can’t get myself moving to do them. This causes me to feel like I’m not pulling my own weight in life.
So, looking back at what I’ve written, I see where I’m failing and know that this is what is causing my stress and anxiety. I’m not sure what to do about it except to try harder. I guess that’s all I can do…try harder.